#179 Thoughts in heart,


She hesistated
to leave that dream of hers and
that love she yearned for.

She wondered how much
tears she have to shed to say
the final goodbye.

-♥-

-CW

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#126 A message that came late,


Phone Message

That message she have
always wanted to receive
arrived on her screen.

Tears danced their way down
her cheeks while she held tightly
onto her cell phone.

Yet those were tears for
lessons learnt and now sadly,
it was all too late.

-CW

(PS: Sorry for not updating more regularly these days, have been really busy so these are all scheduled posts. Hope you enjoy and I’ll be back ! 🙂 )

#100 My Life,


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Time, Life.

Each year passed so fast,
time flew in the blink of an
eye as life goes on.

The laughter and smiles
have made me appreciate
small little things more.

Those tears that were shed
became lessons for me to
learn in the future.

Yet the good and bad
that happened in life made me
love it even more.

 -♥-

-CW

#45 Poem to Aunt,


Holding onto your skinny hand,
while letting our hopes stand.
We stayed by your side,
yet our words are tied.
Praying for you each day,
wishing you could stay.
As tears trickled down your cheek,
I wondered what was it you wanted to speak.
When we watched your breath slowed down,
we frowned as our hearts pound.
Waiting for the next breath that never comes,
our hopes shattered into crumbs.
We held on to the last tinge of hope,
to have it all gone down slope.
As we find for the last sign of heartbeat desperately,
only to realise we have lost totally.
To watch your leaving,
I had indescribable feeling.
Yet knowing that you no longer need to fight,
soothed our broken hearts tonight.
Having you in our lives was a gift,
and be sure you will be missed.
-CW

This poem above is dedicated to my aunt who had passed away on 30th August 2014.
She was a fighter for cancer and a really wonderful aunt. 
Respect to her for her optimistic attitude throughout her whole life.
Thank you for everything.

Rest In Peace, Aunt. 

Letters to heaven,


I happened to remember there was once our teacher got us to write a love letter. It could be a love letter to your partner, or friends, or perhaps even family. That time, I could not write the letter and yesterday night I tried to write. I had a hard time deciding who this letter should be written to and in the end,  I decided to write it to my dear grandma.

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Dear Popo ,

How long have I not seen you? It had been awhile, isn’t it?

Hope you are doing well as before. To be honest, you have always been in my mind for these past few years.

Everytime I think of you, tears will secretly welled up in my eyes. Sometimes, I ended up crying.

Everytime I came across the pictures we have taken together, memories just came flooding back to me.

Whenever I talked about you, the emptiness in my heart just came back again and once again. It was like a dagger to my heart.

Worst was when I saw the items you bought for me, I just felt like crying. One thing I am certain of is that I am glad that I kept those items safely.

I remembered you bringing me to shops, and you will buy whatever I love for me.

I remembered you always cook the delicious meals and especially the soup that I love the most.

I remembered that softness of the clothes that you wear.

I remembered the sense of touch when you held my hand. Till today, it is vivid clear.

I remembered the day when you held my hand, and ask me to come over anytime I like.

I remembered the photo that I helped you took that day at the coffee shop and it was the last photo I ever have. Yet, I lost it.

The last few memory I had of you was that you wanted to wear pretty nice clothes for chinese new year.

I remembered that me at that rebellious age, just smiling at you after I heard what you said and continued playing my phone.

The last memory I had was that day, when you left me. That day when you went up to heaven. It was the worst day of my life ever.

As I am writing this letter to you, much feelings and memories came back to me.

Deep in my heart, I really wish that you are doing great there.

I’m sorry for the words that were left unsaid.

I miss you and I love you.

Loves,
Cw

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To be honest, I wept while writing this letter, I’m not sure if anyone read it will wept. haha. 🙂

Do you have any letters to share with me? If there is, please drop me a comment. 🙂

Thank you! Have a nice day, people!

That precious memory,


Our lives were perfect,

there were nothing that we lacked.

Things were unexpected,

but it was not what we wanted. 

You left us,

in a speed that was so fast.

That day when we cried,

obviously we had no more appetite. 

That night, we wept,

so much tears were shed.

How much we feared,

was the amount of tears that have been teared, 

Those days were a horror, 

when all of us were drowned into sorrow.

Slowly by slowly.

step by step.

We put you into our memory,

and we no longer live in the misery.

Now that it have been so long, 

we have moved on.

The love we have,

will always be there.

Have you guys ever had something that you have forgotten for a very long time and one day, you were walking down the street? Then the memory suddenly returned back to you as a vivid memory and that you could remember it as if the incident had just happened yesterday.

Or is there a  memory that you can never ever forget in your entire life even though it happened very long time ago.

It was that day. The day that my grandmother left us. It was too sudden, and perhaps that was what added to the impact that had caused all of us, whereby we can never ever forget what happened that day.

A piece of memory came to me that day. I do not really remember much about the things that happened in the past. But this piece of memory came back:

That day, she brought me to the market. She held my hand all along and when we reached a store, she bought something from the shop and this shop sell toys as well. She asked me if I wanted the toy. As a kid, i nodded. It was a farm set of toys. Now, I still have the 2 piece of toys with me.

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The week before she went to heaven, she said to me,

“我要收这些美美的衣服过年!“ (I want to keep these beautiful clothes for Chinese new year! )

I believe that when she left us, that incident kind of changed me.
I became more conscious and aware of the things around me and no longer take things for granted.

What I regret is that I never had a chance to say.” I love you and thank you” to her.
I lost that chance but I believed that she will still understand me.

Now and then,

I will still think about her.

婆婆,您一定要快乐。好想您。。

Quote:

It is impossible not to miss someone who was once a part of your life.

Family love,


She walked in the rain,

hoping to wash away her pain.

It was too much for her to hold,

when the truth was told.

The family she was in,

was somewhere she wasn’t supposed to be seen.

All the memories from these years,

were formed into drops of tears.

She had no single idea,

that her family kept the secret away from her.

Why did they not tell her she was adopted all along?

Was it really right or wrong?

String of tears just kept rolling down,

where happiness was nowhere to be found.

Sound of footsteps running behind her could be heard,

never had she ever felt this hurt.

She turned and looked behind,

her eyes just in time to find,

the drenched family of hers.

When they finally reach her,

they know there wasn’t any more words to say.

She was brought into a tight hug,

and she knew where was she to find such a good luck?

With her blurred and teary vision,

she was even more certain with her life mission.

This life was what she wanted,

so what if she was adopted?

She have the greatest family ever,

she was never going to let go, never.

She smiled with her tears of joy flowing down,

it was a happiness that for that instance, she thought it will never be found.

Hand in hand,

she stood up with them.

Then, they strolled back home slowly,

forgetting about the pouring rain totally.

Hope you like it! 🙂

The story scene is actually about this girl who just realised that she was an adopted child of the family. At first, she couldn’t take the truth until her family comes along. Then she figured that, it wasn’t really important whether she’s born in this family or not. It is what she has now that is important.

Quote: Family is the most important thing in the world.

-Princess Diana