Awakening Journey (Part III)

Cw @ Switzerland

When I was approached by sweet Barbara and the thought of me not being forgotten, made me feel so warm and touched. Much memories came back. Similar title but different feel and thoughts. I was given another reason to read what I have written 4 years ago. You can walk down this memory lane with me.

I opted for this post to be shared on this special day because each year, this was a day that emotions are especially strong. I reflected on anything and everything, significantly on my achievements and my mistakes.

This year was another milestone in life. I have officially graduated from university and landed myself in my dream job in the desired industry.

Human Relationship
Human relationship was something I treasured and craved for in the past. I love being around people and I was always the one who initiated meet ups or outings. There were much vivid memories of me spending time to have late night chats with friends. I was always nice to people but to the younger me, it would have been fake if I said I did not expect the same back. I recalled, often I felt hurt at people’s decisions of wanting to cut ties. People around me seemed to leave without any tinge of hesitation. Those moments were upsetting and was something that I could not comprehend. I remembered looking for an answer at times but obviously there was not any.

“The only thing that is constant is change.” – Heraclitus
As I grew older, things have changed tremendously. It was no longer that easy to meet up with people, talk to people and the late-night chats that I love became lesser and lesser. Denial was something I encountered. I struggled to accept changes which eventually as I grew older, it was something I had to learn to accept. It took me awhile to learn that it is never about the quantity but quality. I questioned the point of having so many acquaintances but during my down times, who will be there to listen to me? I could also easily link it to a concept I used to have. I wanted to live longer if I could, to be a centenarian, to flaunt this achievement of living long. But was I able to tell people at that point of time that I have lived my life to the fullest? In my hesitation, I guess I found my own answer.

“It is not length of life, but depth of life.” -Ralph Waldo Emerson
In my job, people share with me all sort of stories. Some make you feel touched because you feel the sincerity and love one could give to another and that is the purest asset one can have in life. On the other hand, you see the ugliest side of human, the hurt; pain and regrets people have experienced, which shape them to be who they are today. The expectations in society often cause us to forget that we are just humans and mistakes are part of being human. The more we want, the more we chase and when we fall, we sink deep right in. Many times, we forget how to pick ourselves up. It was also at the point of time when I felt, relationship with humans was something I will like to protect.

“Take chances, make mistakes. That’s how you grow. Pain nourishes your courage. You have to fail in order to practice being brave.” – Mary Tyler Moore
In these years, I have lost and gained. Some people left while the others remain. I stopped chasing for people who do not reciprocate even after much attempts. I stopped being the person who tried hard to please everyone and to keep everyone in my life because I know deep in my heart, some people come as blessings whereas the others are life lessons.

“In every end, there is also a beginning.” – Libba Bray
That step to make this decision was not easy, but it was like an open door to me. I felt free. I constantly remind myself to live my life to the fullest each day, so I will not have any regrets if I were going to leave tomorrow. Today, I still stick to my values and principles of always being kind to people, regardless of any differences. I am on my way to do my little part for the society and I am proud of making that small difference.

“Not all of us can do great things. But we can do small things with great love.” – Mother Teresa
Each of our life, is our awakening journey. Self-realization, acceptance and learning to embrace who you are, are just the parts and parcels of it. We never stop learning and we pay the price of each decisions that we make. My very own journey led me to various paths, allowing me to be a different person than I was before. I strongly believe our insignificant bits made significance to our lives and it is beautiful and perfect just like that.

Lastly, to me today, happy birthday.


#195 My friend,

The wonders i had
where negativism knocks
its way into me.

All those times I prayed
to see you safe once again
were uncountable.

And one day, the sound
of your breath returned, taking
away the baggage.

Some things I kept close
to my heart brought joy which was
you, being alive.



PS: For you, D.

#187 The Melancholy Sky,


Credits: @d_atn (Check him out on instagram for more of his work!)

Ever since that day,
the sky cried buckets of tears,
every now and then.

Was it to soothe the
somber atmosphere or just
for a good night sleep?

Wearing shattered heart
on sleeve, it was sharing my
unspoken story.



Honoured ^-^

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No one said love was easy.

Love was hard, love was tough.

It does not apply only for relationship loves, but as for friendship loves as well.

Many things are being taken into granted of and either we don’t bother to do anything or we did not notice and realised it.

We get hurt along the way and hurt the others either intentionally or unintentionally.

For many things that happened, We cried, we laughed, we smiled, we fight.

All these things were the ingredients to make a best friendship.

Dear friends, know that I will always be there for you no matter what happens.

If ever wonder I get hurt along the way, heal me.

But know that you can approach me if you need any help, I’ll be there.

And why?

” Because we are friends.”


There comes a point in your life when you realize who really matters, who never did and who always will.

– Unknown

Side note:

It’s holiday now! Off from my busy schedule! yay.

Hope everyone have a good day ! 🙂


A poem dedicated to a special friend.

When two girls who like to read meets,
We know they are the leaders who lead.
A friendship that is slowly build up,
Distance wouldn’t bring it down.
When we first met,
It seems like this friendship is set.
Just so you know,
This friendship aren’t getting low.
Dreams are hard to follow,
But please don’t let it go.
I have faith in you,
so start your life brand new!

Hope you guys like this as well. 🙂


” Hard times don’t last forever but true friendship do. I’ll always be there for anything you need. Even if it’s just someone to listen to.”

A late letter,

I read this book, its in chinese. But the title of this book is A late letter, 一封迟来的信。 It pretty touches my heart and makes me feel really sad. I used to have a friendship problem in the past, which is pretty similar to this book. Misunderstandings caused a broken friendship. And what I thought it was so true is that I moved on like the girl in the story. But the only thing different is that, I approached them to ask why.

“You need to understand that there are some things that you can’t get or achieve although you have worked hard for. Especially the relationship between humans, other than working hard, sometimes, you require affinity. Including relationship, it is something you can’t forced.”

It was exactly the same way I felt. After explaining for a period of time, I grew tired and I stopped explaining.

“A friendship without trust, even with much explanation, nothing will change.”

“Learn to appreciate the people around you. There are still many true friends around you.”

“Let go of the past. The next time I see them, I will just give them my most beautiful smile.”

So true, so right. Until today, I can’t really remember what had happened in the past. Without trust in a friendship, that’s not even call a friendship.That day, I too felt we could hold each other’s hands and walk this road together.


Well, then let this past go past. 🙂

But Ps: I saved the friendship in the end :’) Just sharing this, because I really love the words being said.


“There comes a point in your life when you realize who really matters, who never did, and who always will.”

– Unknown

Thanks for reading.

And have a good day people!

“We all have stories we want to tell”

Hihi, I’m back. No poems for today but well tonight, I want to talk about this topic about,” We all have stories we want to tell”, however there are things we just find it hard to say it out, even to people around you. Yesterday, after attending Interpersonal Communication Skills lesson, I found out what my teacher said was true.
” We all have that something we don’t want to let anyone know.”

Maybe that’s known as our privacy I guess. However, yet somehow , we will still use methods to let the other party know how we feel but we just do it in an indirect way. In our hearts, we do have that tinge of hope that the other party understands it. True friends , family understand it. No matter how bad it is, they understand you and encourage you to move on with life. They are the ones who accept who you really are.

Also, I think what my teacher said was so true. “We take time to know a person.” We can’t judge a person purely on a first impression. Time is always needed to let people understand deeper into another.
Recently, I have also noticed many friends around me facing friendship problems and so. But..  A friend is what we need. A listening ear is what we seek. Turn to your family or friends, talk to them, tell them your happy or sad stories. I’m sure they will be really happy to hear. Trust me, don’t bottle everything up. Is better to share with someone as the pain is split into half and the happiness is doubled.

Just to let you know, I’m always here if anyone needs a listening ear.

Have a nice day everyone 🙂

PS: I’m a good listener . xx

 Hard times don’t last forever but true friendships do…I ‘ll always be there for anything you need. 


Thank you 🙂