Awakening Journey (Part III)

Cw @ Switzerland

When I was approached by sweet Barbara and the thought of me not being forgotten, made me feel so warm and touched. Much memories came back. Similar title but different feel and thoughts. I was given another reason to read what I have written 4 years ago. You can walk down this memory lane with me.

I opted for this post to be shared on this special day because each year, this was a day that emotions are especially strong. I reflected on anything and everything, significantly on my achievements and my mistakes.

This year was another milestone in life. I have officially graduated from university and landed myself in my dream job in the desired industry.

Human Relationship
Human relationship was something I treasured and craved for in the past. I love being around people and I was always the one who initiated meet ups or outings. There were much vivid memories of me spending time to have late night chats with friends. I was always nice to people but to the younger me, it would have been fake if I said I did not expect the same back. I recalled, often I felt hurt at people’s decisions of wanting to cut ties. People around me seemed to leave without any tinge of hesitation. Those moments were upsetting and was something that I could not comprehend. I remembered looking for an answer at times but obviously there was not any.

“The only thing that is constant is change.” – Heraclitus
As I grew older, things have changed tremendously. It was no longer that easy to meet up with people, talk to people and the late-night chats that I love became lesser and lesser. Denial was something I encountered. I struggled to accept changes which eventually as I grew older, it was something I had to learn to accept. It took me awhile to learn that it is never about the quantity but quality. I questioned the point of having so many acquaintances but during my down times, who will be there to listen to me? I could also easily link it to a concept I used to have. I wanted to live longer if I could, to be a centenarian, to flaunt this achievement of living long. But was I able to tell people at that point of time that I have lived my life to the fullest? In my hesitation, I guess I found my own answer.

“It is not length of life, but depth of life.” -Ralph Waldo Emerson
In my job, people share with me all sort of stories. Some make you feel touched because you feel the sincerity and love one could give to another and that is the purest asset one can have in life. On the other hand, you see the ugliest side of human, the hurt; pain and regrets people have experienced, which shape them to be who they are today. The expectations in society often cause us to forget that we are just humans and mistakes are part of being human. The more we want, the more we chase and when we fall, we sink deep right in. Many times, we forget how to pick ourselves up. It was also at the point of time when I felt, relationship with humans was something I will like to protect.

“Take chances, make mistakes. That’s how you grow. Pain nourishes your courage. You have to fail in order to practice being brave.” – Mary Tyler Moore
In these years, I have lost and gained. Some people left while the others remain. I stopped chasing for people who do not reciprocate even after much attempts. I stopped being the person who tried hard to please everyone and to keep everyone in my life because I know deep in my heart, some people come as blessings whereas the others are life lessons.

“In every end, there is also a beginning.” – Libba Bray
That step to make this decision was not easy, but it was like an open door to me. I felt free. I constantly remind myself to live my life to the fullest each day, so I will not have any regrets if I were going to leave tomorrow. Today, I still stick to my values and principles of always being kind to people, regardless of any differences. I am on my way to do my little part for the society and I am proud of making that small difference.

“Not all of us can do great things. But we can do small things with great love.” – Mother Teresa
Each of our life, is our awakening journey. Self-realization, acceptance and learning to embrace who you are, are just the parts and parcels of it. We never stop learning and we pay the price of each decisions that we make. My very own journey led me to various paths, allowing me to be a different person than I was before. I strongly believe our insignificant bits made significance to our lives and it is beautiful and perfect just like that.

Lastly, to me today, happy birthday.

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8 thoughts on “Awakening Journey (Part III)

  1. Dear CW… Happy Happy Birthday week, full of celebrating YOU who fills this world with your unique and beautiful YOU. AND congratulation for graduating, not only university but transcending the mundane and living your life in the fullness you are… no matter how others choose to live. I resonate so much with wanting to be surrounded by others and it was always me who arranged it all… until I realised it was ok just to be and allow myself to reflect true love… the ones who are on a similar journey of experiencing moment by moment the joy of feeling the full depth of life… all life… being the innocence of joy, love and peace… each truly is within. Thankyou so much for joining us again, you are a true inspiration to many. Much love Barbara x

    • Thank you Barbara for your kind words and again, thanks for giving me this opportunity to join you in this meaningful writing journey. Im honored and glad. xx

  2. A belated Happy Birthday CW.. . Seeing the people who enter and leave our lives and the lessons brought by them, so often hard lessons we would sooner not have experienced, and yet by their very existence we have emerged stronger and would not be who we are today without them..
    I now see all encounters as a blessing, and even the most painful memories, I now see them within a different light, For they bring their own teachings of something I needed to learn or see within my self..

    I do not know CW if you are the same CW I once connected with in blog land.. If you are, I say hi to an old friend, if not then its good to meet you..

    LOVE and light..
    Sue~ ❤

  3. Pingback: And The Journey Continues… A Selection of True Awakening Experiences Part III | The Long Way Home

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