Our lives were perfect,
there were nothing that we lacked.
Things were unexpected,
but it was not what we wanted.
You left us,
in a speed that was so fast.
That day when we cried,
obviously we had no more appetite.
That night, we wept,
so much tears were shed.
How much we feared,
was the amount of tears that have been teared,
Those days were a horror,
when all of us were drowned into sorrow.
Slowly by slowly.
step by step.
We put you into our memory,
and we no longer live in the misery.
Now that it have been so long,
we have moved on.
The love we have,
will always be there.
Have you guys ever had something that you have forgotten for a very long time and one day, you were walking down the street? Then the memory suddenly returned back to you as a vivid memory and that you could remember it as if the incident had just happened yesterday.
Or is there a memory that you can never ever forget in your entire life even though it happened very long time ago.
It was that day. The day that my grandmother left us. It was too sudden, and perhaps that was what added to the impact that had caused all of us, whereby we can never ever forget what happened that day.
A piece of memory came to me that day. I do not really remember much about the things that happened in the past. But this piece of memory came back:
That day, she brought me to the market. She held my hand all along and when we reached a store, she bought something from the shop and this shop sell toys as well. She asked me if I wanted the toy. As a kid, i nodded. It was a farm set of toys. Now, I still have the 2 piece of toys with me.
The week before she went to heaven, she said to me,
“我要收这些美美的衣服过年！“ (I want to keep these beautiful clothes for Chinese new year! )
I believe that when she left us, that incident kind of changed me.
I became more conscious and aware of the things around me and no longer take things for granted.
What I regret is that I never had a chance to say.” I love you and thank you” to her.
I lost that chance but I believed that she will still understand me.
Now and then,
I will still think about her.
It is impossible not to miss someone who was once a part of your life.